March 16, 2021 When I am thinking about giving birth I have all those image within me that are popping up in my head. I have surely this classical image of the woman who is yelling and crying really loudly to express the awful pain that she is going through. I saw that in movies for sure. I know a couple women who said that the pain is terrible but that they forgot immediately when they saw their baby and hold it for the first time. Other women that I asked about their experiences, they told me that they kinda feel nothing because they were too high on medication during the process. It is terrible for you and for the baby as well. I understand that we all have been brain washed with the wrong way of giving birth which is the medical way but that is clear for me that I don't want to use any drugs and that I want to do this the natural way. Also with the knowledge I have about medical industry it just impossible for me to give birth in a hospital. I can see that ending up at the ho
March 10, 2021 Let's start this blog with one of the subject of my previous blog, pregnancy. I am not sure of what to think about it because in my environment, there was women who did really loved being pregnant and others hated it. I have listen to both stories and I came to the conclusion that I will know only when I'll get there but on the other hand, I also think that this is something that should be embrace on each second. This is something so incredible. I mean, we women can bring another human on Earth we can carry and give life, it's amazing. I had flashed the word pregnancy and I missed it. Some memory has come up to the surface and I know why I resisted this particular word. It took a lot of time to my mom to leave me alone with the fact she wanted to be a grandmother. At this time of my life I felt forced to have kids, I did not wanted to deceive her and at some point I just told her that it will never happened and she seems so sad but we all made the peace with