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Day 44 : Am I honest when it comes to breathing

 March 7, 2021

I had said in my previous blog that I wasn't honest about the breathing process and it is totally true. I am aware of the powerful benefit that  breathing have and sometimes it is just like I forget it or well, I am avoiding it. I am definitely not using it enough, it must be the first thing that I am doing in the morning - the thing I immediately do when I catch myself being in my mind- when a thoughts comes up, a feeling , a memory from the past that can cause fear or emotional reactions, all of that. I am just not using it enough it is not automated already within me. I have to be in a catastrophic moment in my mind where physical reactions are created to think about breathing.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that human are programs for self-sabotage and that is obvious that it is not automated within me because I am at the beginning of my process and that I am still acting\reacting as mind because that is what I always did since the day my natural learning ability is closed.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not use the breathing process properly to assist myself when a thoughts, emotions, feeling ,fear or memory comes up to get back here on the physical instead of staying in my mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the ego is addicted to energies and that good or bad it does not want me to be out of my mind it in fact want me to stay in my delusional mind\movie life.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that breathing is the first thing we do when we born on Earth and the last thing we do when we leave this world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself for not applying breathing as the first thing I do in the morning.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to wait to be in an alarming moment to take the time to breathe.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to breathe in every moment.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with myself by convincing myself that I was breathing enough when I was in fact in my mind most of the time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that it is not because I don't feel good or bad that the ego is not still there within me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that I have to live every moment breath by breath.

When and as I see myself participating in my mind instead of breathing, I stop and breathe.

I realize that by not breathing I am participating in the mind and I am not life when I do that I am just ego so, I am not completely honest.

I commit myself to be more aware of my thought, emotions, feeling , fears and memory and always use breathe to come back to reality in the physical.

I commit myself to wake up every morning with a deep breathe before I start my day.

I commit myself to catch the first thought I have in the morning and take a deep breathe and make sure I don't participate into the mind during the day.

I commit myself to always be self-honest.


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