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Day 41: The pain is real

March 3, 2021

Today I am feeling empty, drained and completely exhausted. My back hurt and my head feels heavy. My shoulders are blocked and my neck as well. It feels like I have run 10 hours straight. I feel a bit sick cause I am sneezing a lot. I had breathe a lot this morning and went through my day but maybe it wasn't best for the body, I think I should let it heal during at least a day. I am not certain of the root cause of the problem but I will keep analyzing what is happening in my body for the next days. I am quite sure it has a link with me that is moving forward and get out of my comfort zone like I never did before. I remember reading something in the Desteni forum where Bernard said that if you are never sick you are deceptive, cause you never change.

 Becoming a distributor is a big move and it implies a lot more responsibilities and I know that I would have to change even more and go against my preprogramming more than ever. I am conscious that this just the beginning of the pain within my body and I want to investigate more about it. I am aware that something is happening within me because the pain is real. I wasn't paying attention to the pain of my body before but now I want to understand. 

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