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Day 24 : Tooth fairy, lie and business

January 26, 2021

 I remember losing my first tooth by receiving a ping-pong ball right on the face and I was so excited to put it below my pillow and receive money for it. I did not believed into the tooth fairy for a long time because I caught my father putting the money below my pillow. I wasn't disappointed by the fact the tooth fairy wasn't real because all I cared about was to received the money. At this young age I was already thinking about the money in a insane way. I didn't wanted to tell my dad that I knew about the fact it was him who was giving me the money because I was fearing that he stopped doing it. In my head it was fair enough to lie about the fact I knew because he was also lying with this made up story. The moment I had a tooth  that was about to fall I prepared myself mentally for the pain because it was worth it.

The day I told him that I knew, he stopped giving me money for my tooth, no magic no money. I was mad because I knew that will happened. It has been a three and half year profit for me to the age of six to 9 and half years old. I can't remembered if it was with my last tooth to lose or close to that but I remember losing a tooth at a family diner where all uncles, grandparents , aunts and my parents were and I organize a fundraising for that. Everybody as gave me money. I did business with my tooth.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to lie to my father about the fact I knew he was the one who gave me money fearing that he stop giving me some. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself the fear of lack.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be greedy with my dad's money when I was in fact lucky to have everything I had like a place to live and a place to sleep.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see that the tooth fairy was a made up story to insist child to think that lying is okay.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire money so much and think that pain was worth it for receiving it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to associate losing a tooth with money.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be honest with myself and with my dad by telling him the truth.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to became mad when my father told me that I was old enough to not receiving money for my tooth anymore.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that losing teeth was doing business.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate the family with the fact I lost a tooth and take their money for myself because my dad has stop giving me money for it. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into self-pity to receive money from all the family.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to don't see that what I was doing was pure abuse.

 I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use this lie at my advantage to make money.

When and as I see myself lying to have more money, I stop and breathe. 

I realize that I have this pattern within me of working hard for my money like a good slave in the system and that I already started to participate in the greed of the system that have always failed since forever and I wasn't conscious of the consequences that my lie and my greed had on the entire world.

I commit myself to make a lot of money in the only way that is best for all which is by distributing Techno Tutor. 

I commit myself to make enough money with
to be able to support Earth Heaven.

I commit myself to show the world that self-pity is nothing more than manipulation and that it leads nowhere.

I commit myself to be grateful for having my basics needs met.

I commit myself to participate actively in the creation of a world that is best for all and dedicate my entire life to it by daily actions and applications.

I commit myself to always be self-honest and always be honest with everybody.

I commit myself to raise my child in a total awareness and comprehension of what is best and explain them everything about made up stories like Santa Claus and Tooth Fairy.

 

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